My Expectations from LIFE

I always tried to measure my expectations from life.. i always wanted a life which would be full of adventures..i always wanted a career tht would satiate my desires of leading a carefree life , a life where i would not hav to face many tensions.

A question asked by me to myself.. wat do i really need from my life?? My life, has always been a mystery to me since the time i've known the world..
At the time i was born, i guess the only thing i expected from life was caring, loving parents n only warmth n care..
As life progressed and i became big, my aims n dreams degan to increase, started finding myself into groups called as friends...
Friends became n integral part of life..vil b mentioning in a separate blog topic altogether about my friends..

childhood also brought dreams , dreams to become someone gr8 in life.. priorities being given to become an engineer right from my childhood... but the irony of those times.. engineering was jus engg to me..dint know anything abt the various branches related to engg... anyways...

those innocent childhood wants n dislikes grew along wid me..albeit stronger... childhood dreams of becoming n enggr became my passion in my teens... more so a computer enggr.. it was a craze at tht time... but fate had its turn of events, became n electronics enggr .. but strongly liking the computer field ...drew me more to computers than to electronics n i completed my post graduation into computers... n a very gud job in a very gud company..life has till now fulfilled my wishes..Various stages of life.. various ppl i met...

now if i turn back to hav a look at my life.. the "me" of ten years back stands before me and laughs... where is the innocent time gone??? in my pursuit for career and dreams... i hav lost an innocent, bubbly past behind... friends though trusted hav become few n foes i hardly hav...

i will b away from my family... the family i so desperately needed as n infant and at all times of my life...


i somtimes ask myself.. is this the life i actually asked for??? Humans in their pursuit for material gain n in the name of careers move out to places, leaving the peace n family behind... me too not an exception...even if i try to break the shackles of career and run back to my times so innocent i cant... the urge to be amongst the best and to make my family so-called more financially solid, i hav to stay away from them..wat a tragedy..

The stages of life... infancy, teens, marriage, family life, death... everyone goes thru the same circle..

but still life must go on... i will be following the same circle of life... will settle, raise a family.. and one day urge my kids to make a career and "name" for themselves.. but can i make a difference???? will always try..and tht will depend upon time..

ya..i do hav a tendency to break away from the routine after all i being an "Aquarian" hates to be bound to the routines of life.. will definitely want to make a difference... rather than life drifting me away to a destination i never thot of goin to ...i will like to make my life different from the way it is presently..

I always hav God to guide me in the correct path, my family to back me up in times of distress and my friends to cheer me up wen times are trying...

A life bubbling wid family values, love, warmth.. thts wat i hav always expected right from infancy...and a few friends who'd see to it tht m always happy..

and thats wat i want out of life......