Midnight Thoughts

just thought of penning down thoughts tht occurred to me at midnite. Today i received n SMS from one of my friend:

"Never sacrifice happiness 4 achievement. v r here for a special reason. stop being a prisoner of the past, become architect of the future".

My thought process started wid the first sentence. Always wondered what happiness meant. Happiness- an abstract feeling having different meaning to different people.For some happiness could b having lots of money and riches so that they could buy the best possible things without having to think about the hole tht would b burnt in their pockets. For others it could b just being beautiful or all powerful.

But for me happiness is just being myself, being with the people i cherish so much , doing things for which i dont hav to find a reason for doing, just being at the right place, just being at home.

I, away frm home now for around 2 years hav given a different meaning to life, never had expected my life to turn out the way it currently is.I had expected a life which is very different from the one i lead today.

Earlier when at home i always thot abt a life which is more balanced, a life at home, my place where i will be earning well enough to satisfy my needs, save and also be with the people i would love to be with.

But life seems to hav something different in store for me. Though i hav a job paying me somthing which i can call more than decent, i still yearn to be at home, eat the food i always complained about...

I yearn for all the scoldings i used to get for doing things wrong though at that time i used to wonder wen i would break free. I wish i could reverse the time.

Being away just for the sake of job, career and money i dont know how much more i would hav to sacrifice. I jus dont feel the price i paid for wat i call a lucrative deal is worth it.

If at all i hav to list out the most priced possessions in my life it could b my family and my friends and i hav left them behind just for the sake of making a gr8 career.

5 years from now i would find myself as a successful person well established in life, achieved a lot. but the cost m paying for tht is really tremendous and its taking its toll on my mind.
Im away from my parents when they need me the most. agreed that im here in this place becoz v(me n my brother) were brought up in an environment where career was given utmost importance and stil is given priority, but at what cost???

If being successful(as defined by some) is what is called happiness in life, then i think i'm the most happiestperson in the world. but thts wat is called life by some, to get something in life u hav to sacrifice somthing..

but no... this is not wat i call is happiness, if at all i get a chance (im sure i definitely will!!) i will b back to all the things i yearn for and m sure i surely will!!