Final Destination

Did this thought ever occur to u....what is our final destination?? where will we be in say another 50 or 60 years??
On my way back home from office i have to pass across a crematorium. Almost every day i see a dead body cremated there..Almost every time i see this scene this thought of final destination comes to my mind and today i thought of putting it down over here..

For how many years does a man actually live??? 10 years 50 years?? 80 years?? No one knows... but ya i feel a man hardly lives...He is so immersed in his day to day routine tasks..his tensions... he hardly lives.. we simply keep on worrying about wats going to happen and we spend so much time repenting over things happened in the past tht we forget we r living in present.... and time slips by...

Wat is man's final destination?? a 2Sq mt grave?? a small pot of ash??? is that wat man is meant to be alive for in this world?? We all live our own lives... we all hav our own people, our own likes..our own dislikes... and one find day...we all need to bid good bye to this materialistic world...everyone of us..man is mortal and no one stays forever...

In his quest for career...a bright future...a supposedly beautiful life.... man forgets the basic beauty of living...

Sometimes thinking about my life i just feel the difference...Suppose i wasnt a software professional..but n ordinary girl....i would b having a different life... but do i really think i wud hav missed this software hype and the lifestyle it gets along wid it??? i really dont think so... yeah to a gr8 extent my lifestyle has changed... i dont mind spending extra for the same thing i wud hav got at a different place at a cheaper price...

Cant i hav a normal simple lifestyle?? any girl at my age whoz not into software is enjoying her days wid parents and close ones...but me...far away from home...can think of going home once in 4-5 months.. in return wat do i get??? a bank account wid money enuf for me to use as and wen i want???

I dont mind shelling out 80-90 Rs over one cup of coffee..wen this money cud be enuf to provide a day's meal to a poor family. Is this really wat i call is my lifestyle?
I dont mind shelling out a thousand or two for the pretty dress that i see..but this amount is enuf for the fees of a deserving student...is this wat im earning for??
Now anyone will ask me..who is stopping me you from being simple... but trust me..this software field is tht way..u need to keep up wid its pace..lest ul b called "outdated"...

So hav i really outlived my own expectations?? or in the bargain of this so called modern hi tech life..i hav lost my identity..my basic aim for living....
I sometimes envy those girls who are satisfied ...and who are not into this software line...would b having proper diet..home food...safe and healthy..not junkies like wat i eat.. they enjoy life with family and friends..unlike me among colleagues and wellwishers...yes..than definitely i would say M living....

M i sulking??? Yes i think so..I am...definitely...n i dont want to bother anyone for this... but i just m penning down thoughts that come to my mind...wen i think wat my final destination wud b....Wen from the auto i see another body being cremated...the soul leaving for its FINAL DESTINATION...