I felt sad today...

Today i felt sad the entire day. I knew the reason for it, but i couldn't do anything to come out of this turmoil. Its not normally that i have too much Coffee, but today in Office i had 3 cups and still i couldn't get my spirits high up...

My mom had accompanied me to Pune last week when i returned back from the Diwali vacation at Goa. The past month and a half was very tiring for me... Office work and work at home... I had to everything on my own at my brother's flat... Right from Cooking, doing the Dishes till cleaning the house. And though i can cook, somehow i dont enjoy eating it... And the biggest thing is, my Bro is a silent kind of guy who doesnt talk much. And me being the talkative lot had to yearn to speak :( . My woes continued till my mom came here...

Suddenly, it was like how it used to be at my place back in Mapusa... the only missing person was my Dad... Poor thing... had to manage all by himself as he is also totally dependant on my mom for all the household chores and becomes helpless when she isn't around... Back in Pune, it was Me, mom and my Bro...

Suddenly the house has become chirpy and full of life... Me and mom we both like to speak a lot and now it was only the two of us who did the talking and my bro was a mute listener :) . He is of the type who just keeps quite listening to all that you talk and that makes you silent with just a small discrete and compact statement...

Since office work was hectic, i used to reach back home at about 10 or so in the night, and there i had my mom waiting for me... She would cook the niciest of food for us, The house sparkled all week long as she took care of it now... My house work was reduced to running errands for her... getting all the things that she required for her daily cooking n cleaning and also helping around with the cutting n stuff...
And She also oiled my scalp after a long long time... It felt so nice... the mother's touch

And today... she left for Goa... :(. Today in the morning when i was leaving for office, i had an odd feeling. I just dint feel like going... Neither could i concentrate much on anything... Me, Preeti and Sheetal took a long T break since neither felt like working... I called up a couple of my friends just to come up from this... and i felt better though momentarily.. And it was because of which i had the 3 cups of Coffee.. :(

As decided, My mom reached my office at 6.15 from where we were supposed to go to Swargate. My bro had decided to join us there... A mild shock awaited us there... We were informed that the bus to Goa was cancelled. Her designated Sleeper coach bus had had a flat tyre. So they made her arrangement in a semi sleeper volvo. At swargate where we were waiting for the tempo which would ultimately take her to Padmavathi, she met another lady who was also going to Goa... they both got on very well with each other and i had some comfort thinking that there is some person travelling along with her and she is not alone...

The wait of about an hour and a half was full of scolding for me :(. She just dint want us to stay back late in the night, though i had planned to see her off at Padmavathi. Finally when her tempo arrived, we thot it better to go home rather than go to Padmavathi... We Then said Bye to her and started on our way back... I dont know somehow i bro was in a mood to ride... He rode at a speed of 100Kmph on the flyovers of Pune and i was so so dazed... This was the first time i had travelled on a bike so fast...

I reached home and jus couldnt bear the silence again... I cried in sobs... very very much. It was kind of a rude silence which i just could not bear. I called up Sriman and just cried for about 10 min on the phone and then was normal back... My mom had already made arrangement for our dinner and so as per her instruction, we had dinner immediately after my crying session... I was so damn tired with the day's happenings and so drained of energy that i collapsed in bed immediately after the dinner and slept like a log...

So this was the day i felt very sad about... The day my mom left for Goa after giving me some nice time in Pune which was otherwise become monotonous. Sometimes i feel, what would i do without my parents being around... Though we arfe brought up to be so independent of anyone and can survive anywhere round the globe, i feel there is some special force which probably was left behind even after the umbilical cord was ruptured... Mother is the most wonderful gift God has given to everyone...

I wonder if i could anytime do justice to thins relation. I could have easily sent her on a flight, but somehow i couldnt convince myself that she would be better on her own. Shez grown old... i can see all the wrinkles on her face... shez grown thin... i can still remember her youthful days when her skin glowed... And i feel its my moral responsibility to take care of her...

When i think of moving out of Goa for a job, i always have second thoughts about it... Wonder whether its worth the job outside, if i couldnt be wid my mom when she needs me at the time she feels alone... and the same holds true for Sriman too.. What are we going to achieve anyways??? Anyways...

So last week for me was a very nice one, when i felt so wanted and cared for... Another thing bothering was i'l be leaving for Goa this weekend. I have grown attached to this place and the time spent with my bro here at Pune... Wonder whether i should go back or stay here... thats a different thought process though :)

So here i m guys... with some more updates from my side... Hopefully i wil be able to post more frequently on this blog... This blog remains as a place where i can write down come real nice memories which i traverse sometimes when i feel down...

Pune updates: August 30th till date

Hey there...

Its been real long that i put something here, the reason being obvious: My deputation to Pune for a period of 2 months. It looks like I have become oblivious to the world outside Pune. I am nearing completion of my deputation term, and here I am penning down the rendezvous of my tenure here at Pune.

Initially before leaving for Pune it was a mixture of feelings for me, at one end i was going to be away from home and Sriman and at the other end i was gonna revisit my memory of the best times of my life that i spent here... I was gonna see all those places, that i could recollect... All the time spent at ISquareIT with friends, the movies (E-Square and Inox), the visits to Natural Icecream Parlour, My College, The company where i completed my internship, Burger King, the visits to the temple on the hillock of hinjewadi, the late night drives in across the IT park around my college, CCD visits, Our birthday parties..late night maggie... Midnite Christmas masses etc etc etc Gosh I had so many memories of this city. and I was going to be staying there for a month.

Pune... The city which always mesmerised me with its efficasy and grandeur makes me nostalgic. It is here that i spent 2 years of my post graduation days, and it is here that i got placed into CA, my dream company which also gave me my best pals... So many memories associated with this place.
Another biggest advantage i had was, my brother had just moved to Pune for a new job just a month back and I already knew it would be a homely environs for me... These were the thoughts that made my decision tilt in towards Pune work and i was at my usual self, calm and composed.

I left Goa on the 30th of August with Preeti. The plan was to catch a flight from Goa to Mumbai, meet my friend Dhiru at Mumbai and then take a cab to Pune. I was already running late and the web check in would not work on my GPRS and so was the Phone checkin not working. Dhiru to the rescue... thank God. He did the Web Checkin for us. We reached Mumbai at 5pm. Chatted with Dhiru at the Mumbai Airport and then we took a cab to Pune at around 7pm. Our Colleagues who had were also on deputation along with us had already reached Pune tht morning. We reached the company designated hotel at 11 in the night. There i had landed back to Pune and my stints with this City started.

Pune has changed a lot over the 3 years that i wasn't here. I was so surprised to look at Aundh... It has turned into a commercial center. Earlier it was just another village in Pune. So many shopping centers and eateries. Pune has always been an education hub and is always full of students everywhere. Looking at the groups, i could embed my group's faces into theirs... My college life was just passing in front of my eyes and i was yearning to be there again... with all my friends.

My Group here in Pune consisted of Me, Bharath, Preeti, Mahesh, Harsha, Sheetal and Nitin...The Goa Group. I have always noticed some kind of bonding that links people of same locations when they meet outside their location of comfort. And the same happened to us. We gelled so well with each other, that we din't feel we were working out of Goa. The familiar faces had now turned into pals. The coffee breaks, the visits to cafe's, the birthday treats, pulling each other's legs during lunch and cofee...

My work over here is very hectic with sometimes we staying late too, which was not a common phenomenon back in Goa. But thanks to our Goa group, working was also fun. In the meanwhile Sriman had paid me a visit after 15 days in Pune, kind of a change for me..Work interspersed with fun... and time seemed to just fly. We just didn't realise that a month had already passed by. and it was time for Harsha and Bharath to go back. Mine, Preeti's and Mahesh's stay had been extended for a month. The evening these 2 people were supposed to leave was a sad kindof... It meant that 2 members from the Goa group were going and we would just be another 5 of us. It meant less fun :(

Since 2nd October was a holiday, we planned our much awaited Goa trip. 2 days in Goa and we were totally replenished. Another 15 days was normal for us, Since it was Diwali time, it meant lots n lots of shopping. Sriman paid a visit again over the weekend before Diwali and it meant more shopping :) . Diwali visit to Goa was fun with so much festivities going on... The only regret was, i just reached Goa on the Diwali morning at about 7, missed out on the Narkasur Competitions. It also meant culmination of Nitin and Mahesh's deputation, so now it was only me, Preeti, and Sheetal. And the Goa Group was reduced only to the 2 of us, Me and Preeti, since Sheetal was now on a permanent transfer to Pune.

Its just another week more in Pune and we will be back to Goa. I can see the ecstasy on Preeti's face wen i mention the end of our deputation. Shez desperately waiting to go to Goa and continue with her normal lifestyle which has all turned topsy turvy. Frankly speaking, it does not make any difference to my lifestyle whether i am in Goa or Pune or Hyderabad... these 3 places are so very close to my heart. I just feel like myself wen i visit these places...

All my initial thoughts of visiting the places in Pune that i had once roamed about took a backseat. Somehow i couldn't come to terms about roaming alone on those streets which once i used to visit with my entire group of six. and believe me, I did not visit any of those places including my college, Its just that i can't make those memories resurface again, as it would mean a pain deep down somewhere... The pain of being in Pune without all those friends...

Pune will always remain an integral part of my life wherever i go... and i don't think so the city will be alien to me even if it changes its face so frequently...
Pune will always remain the old Pune for me, the place where i had spent the best 2 years of my life...