I have fallen in Love again! Exactly like someone had told me... and this time, I am in love with my adorable 7 month old baby Shourya. Life has changed so much for the better ever since this angel has come to my world.
It was a difficult start to a 2012. With 2 miscarriages to back it, I'd say my life was miserable. It seemed like nothing made sense. I was one amongst the few cases in which the best of doctors could not determine the reason for the repetitive miscarriages! Dejected over the incompetence of medical science to give me a valid reason, I resorted to my belief in God to attain some strength to face it and for some peace of mind!
I travelled to Rishikesh at the end of 2012, where I spent some time in the sanctity of the Ganges. The pristine waters of the Holy Ganga, and the sacred chants everywhere invigorated my mind and I was ready to take on life with all the challenges it laid before me! Sadly, in the middle of 2013 this place was devastated in a flood.
A further stay at the lovely lush green hill station Mussoorie brought about a lot of positive changes in me!
Accepting the fact that parenthood would be a distant dream, or might even be impossible, we decided to move ahead in life. And then it was in April 2013, by the stroke of Serendipity that I came to know I was pregnant. They say that the best things in life happen when you least expect them...and there I was... listening to and enjoying the sight of the mini heart on the ultrasound monitor for the first time... with tears in my eyes and joy in my heart!
The excitement didn't last long and the ghosts of my past issues started dampening my spirits... I had to be hospitalised after which I was prescribed compulsory bed rest and precautionary daily injections. Thus started my dissension with God... daily I found myself asking... Why me? They were the toughest 7 months of my life where every single passing day was a relief!
Needless to say, even with all the struggles I found myself enjoying every tiny bit of happiness I could extract from life... Probably motherhood teaches you to be more positive!
I must highlight here, the support I received from my parents, brother and my in laws, without which I would not have been able to tread this path to motherhood! With parents taking turns to be with me, it made me mentally so strong.
Sriman, always besides me in these testing times was a humongous moral support.
I should also thank my employers for providing me all the support during this time. I could work from home full time. Working energized me as I devoted my time not to think about unwanted fears, but to channelise my energy towards something more productive.
It was in August when I felt my baby kick for the first time. All my worries and apprehensions disappeared.
Amidst all the events, the major one was the 4d sonography... I could see the new life within me direct on the monitor. That was the time I actually cried.
Time passed at a snail's pace and it was mid of October 2013 when I moved to my home town... my beloved Goa... thus started all my pampering at home...
Amidst working from home, bed rest and alternate day visits to the doctor, time just flew and before I knew it, it was December.
Life was about to take a gigantic leap. The date of my C section was fixed on 12th Dec. I got admitted on the evening of 11th Dec for the formalities. The night was a one full of apprehensions. The surgery started. I had an epidural due to which I was conscious and I could hear the doctors talk casually. I just prayed for everything to go well and asked God to bless my child.
I remember the moment very clearly when I heard my baby cry for the first time. I didn't know how to react. The doctors told me it is a "Smiling dolly" as she started smiling within a few minutes into the new world. I could see and caress my baby on the operation table itself... and thus, I fell in love... again!
Time just flew once she came into our lives. Days turned to months... It is now 7 months ever since... Recently we celebrated her 6 month birthday and I realised it would be only months before she would turn one! My little doll has started blabbering now and it is so exciting :)
The one good thing that has evolved from all the struggles that I went through is that I have become more positive and strongly believe that the right things come to you at the right time.
A favourite quote of mine is as follows:
God says 'yes' and gives you what you want.
God says 'no' and gives you better.
God says 'wait' and gives you the best!
So here I am, in love again with the most precious gift of my life.
Shourya, my baby... you have given me a million reasons to smile...
It was a difficult start to a 2012. With 2 miscarriages to back it, I'd say my life was miserable. It seemed like nothing made sense. I was one amongst the few cases in which the best of doctors could not determine the reason for the repetitive miscarriages! Dejected over the incompetence of medical science to give me a valid reason, I resorted to my belief in God to attain some strength to face it and for some peace of mind!
I travelled to Rishikesh at the end of 2012, where I spent some time in the sanctity of the Ganges. The pristine waters of the Holy Ganga, and the sacred chants everywhere invigorated my mind and I was ready to take on life with all the challenges it laid before me! Sadly, in the middle of 2013 this place was devastated in a flood.
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| At the Parmarth Ashram, where the Ganga water level rises during and after the Aarti... Found it mysterious though! |
A further stay at the lovely lush green hill station Mussoorie brought about a lot of positive changes in me!
Accepting the fact that parenthood would be a distant dream, or might even be impossible, we decided to move ahead in life. And then it was in April 2013, by the stroke of Serendipity that I came to know I was pregnant. They say that the best things in life happen when you least expect them...and there I was... listening to and enjoying the sight of the mini heart on the ultrasound monitor for the first time... with tears in my eyes and joy in my heart!
The excitement didn't last long and the ghosts of my past issues started dampening my spirits... I had to be hospitalised after which I was prescribed compulsory bed rest and precautionary daily injections. Thus started my dissension with God... daily I found myself asking... Why me? They were the toughest 7 months of my life where every single passing day was a relief!
Needless to say, even with all the struggles I found myself enjoying every tiny bit of happiness I could extract from life... Probably motherhood teaches you to be more positive!
I must highlight here, the support I received from my parents, brother and my in laws, without which I would not have been able to tread this path to motherhood! With parents taking turns to be with me, it made me mentally so strong.
Sriman, always besides me in these testing times was a humongous moral support.
I should also thank my employers for providing me all the support during this time. I could work from home full time. Working energized me as I devoted my time not to think about unwanted fears, but to channelise my energy towards something more productive.
It was in August when I felt my baby kick for the first time. All my worries and apprehensions disappeared.
Amidst all the events, the major one was the 4d sonography... I could see the new life within me direct on the monitor. That was the time I actually cried.
Time passed at a snail's pace and it was mid of October 2013 when I moved to my home town... my beloved Goa... thus started all my pampering at home...
Amidst working from home, bed rest and alternate day visits to the doctor, time just flew and before I knew it, it was December.
Life was about to take a gigantic leap. The date of my C section was fixed on 12th Dec. I got admitted on the evening of 11th Dec for the formalities. The night was a one full of apprehensions. The surgery started. I had an epidural due to which I was conscious and I could hear the doctors talk casually. I just prayed for everything to go well and asked God to bless my child.
I remember the moment very clearly when I heard my baby cry for the first time. I didn't know how to react. The doctors told me it is a "Smiling dolly" as she started smiling within a few minutes into the new world. I could see and caress my baby on the operation table itself... and thus, I fell in love... again!
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| Baby Shourya: Day 2 at the hospital |
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| Baby Shourya: 6th month birthday |
A favourite quote of mine is as follows:
God says 'yes' and gives you what you want.
God says 'no' and gives you better.
God says 'wait' and gives you the best!
So here I am, in love again with the most precious gift of my life.
Shourya, my baby... you have given me a million reasons to smile...
